fuckin journal...

we got both motors out of both mustangs, now for the long and enduring process of putting mine together. im sooo happy though, its like one of the first steps towards my car...like seriously thats what ive been thinking about most these days. like when i dream, and daydream, and just kinda drift off, im usually thinking about my car. and if im not thinking about my car im thinking about tami. so yea, if i dont post for a long time its cause im super busy. not like i get that many people reading it, but yea...im gonna be busy, so peace.

feeling really depressed lately...i dont know why, but i just feel down. im sick and tired of my life. and what goes on it it. i wanna be out having fun! doing fun things...but all i ever seem to do is sit around and look at a tv screen. im sick of being tired during school, and sick of homework, and sick of having to go. god i just want it to be over. i want to be with my girlfriend everyday. i want to have a really awesome relationship with her. i want her mom to be ok with tami and i being together. and i want her mom to definently get the fact that her daughter is growing up. i want my life to be a good one. like a real teenagers life. well maybe im asking for too much. but i pray to god everyday that he steers me in the right direction. well whatever. im out. peace.

yea, so today was GREAT!!! even though i bet one person doesnt exactly think it was, but they are wrong! i loved today. i went to eugene with my girlfriend and her DI(Destination Imagination) team. it was absoluetely awesome, or allison, as some people say. haha. i love tami and all her friends are the greatest, their performance was sooo cool, but they said it sucked. its the first one ive ever seen so i wasnt an expert and i wasnt going to argue with umm. it was cool...even though it was kinda long. i liked it and i would definently want to go again.

on another note, alex and i succesfully pulled the engine out my brothers rust bucket last night. we even got the intake manifold off. so now i can start assembling and putting it into my car...my pony will be alive and KICKIN soon. so you all will have to ask for a ride. well thats all i got, so peace.

damn...so lately its been hella nice outside. so in tune thats where i been spending most my time. outside enjoying the weather. and mainly washing my dads beautiful yellow truck. because until i get a $150 dollar part for my car its out of comish. which is gay. but its also my fault. because i ruined it. i put octane in the fuel to turbo charge it. and i ended up frying the transmission. because the transmission is a piece of shit. god damnit. anyway, we will be having good times soon. i cant wait. 5 speeds. hahaha it sounds so normal to everyone else. but to me it sounds like heaven. anyway...im getting a V8 soon. and then my car will be the shit. no one will be able to touch me. and it will be a total sleeper because it wont look all finished. but it will still be fast as hell. anyway...im done wishing and druling over what will soon be mine. im out.

god...thinking hurts my head. i am stuck in a whirlpool. paddling harder to get out just makes me spin faster. so what do i do? i cant paddle out, and i cant go in or i might not come back out. i mean there has to be a current break somewhere right? please someone tell me that there is always a current break in a whirlpool. i mean i hope there is, or i could be stuck in this whirlpool forever, or worse not come out of it. cause im getting tired of trying. yea this sounds like a bunch of jibberish to most of you, but to someone it means something. i hope they read. peace out.

holy crap! i got a bloody nose cause my boogers were sooo disgusting and crusty. i had crust nose! dont you hate that? haha. anyway, today was valentines day. and it was kinda lame, but kinda cool. school sucked. no one wanted to hang with me during lunch so i went to my class and read a book. pretty lame for me. but i dont care about anything or very many people at school. so who cares about that. i went and got a pizza from DREAM after school, and gave a homeless guy a slice. then i went and got tami and we went to the river and talked. she baked me cookies. i dunno, things seem to be getting better. but with our relationship anything could happen. so...i guess i dont really have much else to say. last weekend was fun, but i wish we would have gone cruising. this weekend its either the gut, fishing, and then the waterfall or beach. i just hope something happens. whatever does it will be sweet. anyway. im out. peace.

so...this weekend is prolly gonna be pretty damn busy. i have to go cruising. get my car on jack stands. and take the transmission out and do a full rebuild on it. its gonna be crazy. i dunno if i can do her. i mean....take everything out, and then put it all back together and hope it works better than it does now, if it will even work at all. im nervous. i dont wanna kill one of the most important parts of my car. and i probably will. sounds like (       ) will be out for a while. i still need a name for my car!!! help me! i need your help, what should my car be named? well this weekend will be full of fun, cursing, and maybe a little kissing. haha. i wish. anyway, im out.

i had so much fun last weekend. more fun to come. this weekend is gonna rock even harder. seeing all my home boys and girls. fuck yea. i cant wait. but first! THE OC!!! thats tmrw. i cant wait. its got me all excited. this weekend im actually gonna sit down and watch the whole fucking thing. instead of missing most of it like the last 2 weeks. well...im having relationship problems. but sometimes good things come out of it. but sometimes bad things do to. i am gonna try and stay on the positive side of things.

lately ive been listening to hella underground rap. fucking tight, i feel like a gangsta. haha. i am the furthest thing from a gangsta, i was once called a badass though. which made me feel hella good. what do you guys think? am i a Badass? well. i guess thats all i got to write. so im out.

holy shit. ok here it goes. lets see if i can remember everything that happened this weekend. ok. first off. movie night on friday. fuckin A. that kinda went sour, what with everyone there having problems. i also, the master planner, had problems of my own. that hella sucked. sometimes i think relationships are over rated. yea thats right i said it. anyway. saturday, i get this call from scott. hes like 'hey yo, what up dog. you wanna chill?' i was like hells ya. so, we decided to go cruising that night, because we had to go out anyway to go to sharis. with Tami. so we go out, and what happens. oh pierrette gets online and we are like 'yo' and shes like 'yo' and it went from there. so we got pierrette to come. and then we take off from my house. and pierrettes like 'hey lets get alicia!' and im like 'aight, chill' so we head over to alicia's crib and get her. then we take off from there. and we get this call from alex. hes like 'hey! what are you doing?' we are like nothin. and so im like 'come to bi-mart parking lot' so he did. and we chill there for a while. but some po's rolled by and made us nervous. so we decide to jet out. we went to get food at arbys. so we did, cruised some more. and then decided to go the boat ramp. we did that. and we are chillin there for a while, when a single car comes rolling down the street. we dont think much of it till we see the lights on top. oh shit its a cop. so we are all acting cool. and he rolls up, and to our surprise a tiny little fucker stepped out. and man did he sound nervous. his voice was all shaky. i think if i put it in pierrettes terms, ' he was like half jakes size'. i think thats what she said anyway. so...after that we are cruising and alex and jacob and brielle and harry decide to head to the GUT. a street hang out. we decide to chill here. and the fact that my car might not make it there. so we are chillin. cruising, and scotts like 'yo, lets go to aarons' and we are all like 'ok'. so we go get aaron and cruise for a lil bit. and then we are all like 'lets get ice cream'. so we went to DQ. it was sweet. so while we are there. i get this phone call from Debra. shes sad. and shes at sams. so, we are thinking sams isnt to far. so we head over there. and we get there just about the time, Debra and Elizabeth are leaving. she is freaking out, so we hug for a while. then she takes off. and we go see whats up with sam. and while we are in the pot and beer infested house, sams like 'here have a stink bomb, dont get into to much trouble.' lets just say we had fun. hahahahaha. but after that. we went back to my house. to get the truck and to drop the girls off because i dont know why, but we just did. so we get the truck and we head over to sharis. we get there about 11, which is when i thought that tami was gonna call me. so we are like... ok lets get a table. so we get in there the guy asks us how many is going to be at the table. we look at each other and go....'alot?'so we get put down for 12. and so we are there from 11 till like 11:45 and i finally get a call from tami. shes like ok we will be there soon. so i guess that they called ahead and got a table. we waited for nothing. it was kinda lame. so we get to the table. and we are chillin, havin a good time. when these 2 guys in like tights, from CV came up and just startled like fondling scott. it was soooo hilarious. and after they left we were just like WTF!!? and so...we just like finish, the food, and are heading out. we see this kid who was like fondling scott and he yells...'dont do anything i wouldnt do!' again we were like WTF?!! and soo after that we get into the truck. Tami is with us. she is hella pissed at me. so we drive home and aaron was just a complete ass to her. i was like dude, not cool. so we get to her house. i get out and walk her to the door. and shes just like 'uhh bye' and walks in the door. i was in a hella bad mood after that so...i am driving hella fast now. and we are driving at an average of like 85 the whole way home. and at this one stop light right next to bi-mart by my house. we just burn rubber all the way across the intersection. so then we are pulling up to my house and we see that pierrette and alicia have just pulled up. so...we turn down there and head to there house. and we are like...'hey lets go back to my house to chill for a while' and so we all came to my house. chilled in my room until like 3:30 watching porn and talking to each other. and then the grls went home and scott, aaron, and i all talked to each other about our girl problems and stuff. guy talk pretty much. then sunday. my dad walked in at like 10:00am and was like 'hey guys, get the fuck up. we are going to get a new BBQ.' so we did that. and we came home. put it together. and then we were hungry. so we went and got 9 fucking burgers from wendys. it was tight. and on the way home, we saw some guys that aaron knew. and they seemed like they wanted to race. so i let them have it, and i fucking WASTED there asses! they were going hella slow. and then at the end, we met in bi-mart and the driver, i think he was scared. he looked like he was shaking. haha. i think he was. cause at the end he went to fast around a corner and started to spin. but he came out ok. so then we came home, watched a movie about lesbians and tami came over. and we chilled and watched the lesbian movie again. and then watched the superbowl. and then everyone went home. soo all in all it was an awesome weekend. and more weekends like this are to come! i cant wait for next weekend!!!!!! its gonna FUCKING rock. so until i post next. peace out.